Sometimes it lasts in love but sometimes it hurts instead...

And with those words, Adele's amazing voice floats over the air and into my memory. Thirty years have passed, I am married to an amazing man, have lived a full and complete life with all the happiness and sorrow. And still I wonder, "What if..."

Damn it! I HATE that I remember and think about someone I don't even know anymore.

I HATE that words have the power to make me relive what was once lost.

I really hate that once upon a time, I gave someone the power to make me remember, even after 30 years.

And he threw it away.